Not all that sings is gold

Yamaha E403Don’t be fooled by the talents… not all that sings is gold! I remember in July 2006 I woke up from a good night’s rest, stretched, yawned a couple of time and realized the heaviness I’d been carrying from my divorce (and another relationship that ended badly) was gone. My son had been put on a plane to return to his mother in Arizona just a couple of days prior so it is a curiosity to me that my general feeling of well-being was so good. Typically I am not very social in the days following my son’s departure. Then, on August 1st, 2006 I wrote my first complete song in years! Five years to be exact.

In case you don’t know this already, I’ve been in the music business for years. I tend to measure my emotional well-being by the act of writing complete songs. It’s not that I hadn’t tried to write a time or two during the five year drought, just nothing ended up in a completely finished state. August 1st, 2006 was a day that signaled I was ready to live again.

The subject matter of the song was about the events of the past years, it mentions details of the breakup of my marriage and some of the experiences in romance during the next 12 months. This was not an emotionally tough song to write, it was my second ‘Post Divorce’ song. I wrote a song about my first divorce (I hate saying that!) about a year or so after it had occurred also. That was a tough song to write, to this day it will draw tears from people who hear it if they are gripped by the same pain. For me, both songs articulated feelings at the time and helped to bring closure for me. Sometimes song writers are they’re own counselors.

Since August I’ve written several more complete songs, and even a few Shakepearean-like poems along the way. Didn’t know I was a poet too, did ya?

The deeply satisfying part of writing is when a finished work effects change in someone. I have a number of songs that can inspire to action, can bring tears, can move someone to mend fences, or to try again in relationships. It’s an amazing feeling to see it unfold during the course of a concert.

Song writers, if they are any good, are often put on a pedestal. I’ve never really been comfortable with such treatment since my roots are based in my Christian faith. As such, I always believed that Christ should get the glory for anything I’d done of value. I will receive a compliment graciously at this point but it was not always so. I don’t feel I need to remind someone that it is not I, but the Light within me that should be praised, that would belittle many whom innocently enough just want to say something nice. Still, don’t be fooled by the talents… not all that sings is gold!

So, you ask, what is it that truly inspires me? (Ok, maybe you’re not asking that…just go with it!)

I’m inspired most by those whom are down trodden, and yet are still able to reach beyond themselves to help another. I’m inspired by a kind word delivered at the right time that brings healing to someone. I’m inspired by how generously some forgive me after moments of complete thoughtlessness on my part. I’m inspired to aspire to those things.

I’ve only helped at a soup kitchen a few times in my life, I’m sure I’m missing something here. I rarely give money to beggars, after all, aren’t there rescue missions that will help. I’ve never offered to drive shut-ins to appointments or helped with grocery shopping or even offered to mow an elderly neighbor’s lawn. For all of my writing talent I possess I must remember it is only words, in taking stock of my life, I have done very little hands on work to help change my world. Not really the stuff of ‘pedestals’, now is it?

In the past year I’ve started to make some changes in this regard. I may only be able effectively help a few along the way, but this, it seems to me, is a legacy worth having. Some day in the future I would rather my children be inspired to aspire by how I reach out to another in need more than merely writing and singing about it. Don’t be fooled by the talents… not all that sings is gold! What do you aspire too?

Thanks for reading this far!


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7 Responses

  1. ღ♥ღღ♥ღ says:

    dammit i clicked this enter b 4 i was finsihed lmaooooooo dontcha hate that lol now back to what i was saying …..WE CREATE OUR DESTINYS ….go hava look @ my blog about "THE SECRET" im sure your find it speaks loud and clear to you ….and as for GOD as you perceive it to be for you …….i consider myself a "melting pot of many beliefs" ….i resinate with many and the truth lies within you my friend …….BE HAPPY AND DRAW HAPPY PEOPLE INTO YOUR WORLD ……the "LAW OF ATTRACTION" IS A AWESOME THING …..neways enuff ranting from Sam lol had to leave ya something else >>>>>>>>>>>>
    "Dance like no one is watching. Sing like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt and live like it's heaven on Earth."

  2. ღ♥ღღ♥ღ says:

    Interesting blog there ,hey there… my name is Samantha and MUSIC is what inspires me because it speaks to the soul and releases energy from within to work outwardly …….you are who you are and life throws many curve balls and surpirses everday and i too was brought up with a very strong christain background but i know this for sure …..

  3. Tim H says:

    Well Rose, I can see I must be a better 'commenter' too. My manners have been lacking in the area of curtesy responses. I can add that to my list of 'Things I gotta get better at in 2005'….oops, guess I'm way behind on that! 😀

  4. Rose J. says:

    Tim I have tried to leave comments, but I have never received a response from you, so I didn't know if you appreciated them or not? I read all of my friends blogs and I know people read mine but don't always leave comments. Some people are just like that-they enjoy reading the blogs, like a good book, but don't always have a comment on them….this is a good blog, I read it a few days ago, and I was going to leave a comment but it was the same as Sunny Bee's…I aspire to be a good mother, someday (hopefully), a good wife, and a better friend. Keep blogging, they are well-written and thoughtful….

  5. Debra ^j^ says:

    Everything is going to be okay, Tim.

    Keep looking within, feeling your feelings, and moving forward one day at a time. You are a determined man, Tim, you'll figure things out. You have had several revelations recently from reading your blogs and I was very proud of you for getting it! (notice I didn't say finally 🙂

    I have gone through some of the things you are…just do not shut down your big loving heart or become resigned and cynical about love like I have done in the past. Do as you mentioned in this blog; seek a place, like church perhaps, just some place where you can help people by sharing your gifts and talents. For me, that is what made all the difference in my life between feeling sorry for myself and feeling good about myself.

    What I aspire to is healing through personal growth, both myself and encouraging others. You are a great encourager to people, Tim. Some people are just thoughtless about letting you know via comments on your blogs. Don't rate yourself by others, God loves you and will never leave you and that is all that matters.

    You are okay, exactly how you are right now and you know as you continue down this same path you are on, things will get better!

    Love always,

  6. Tim H says:

    All wonderful things Sunny Bee!

    It's always been a curious thing why people don't leave comments. I thing the most I've ever gotten is 6 comment to a blog, and two of the comments were me responding to someone. Guess that makes it only 4 'real' comments.

  7. Sunny Bee says:

    I aspire to be as good of a wife, mother and friend as my mother has been.